start weight: 242
current weight: 202
Ok so I’m still hanging tough with this plateau and I am SO FRIGGIN HUNGRY. I swear, I feel totally jipped by winning the ‘2% of patients who will still experience hunger after surgery’ lottery. Seriously? I AM STARVING. It’s forcing me, yes – my hunger is twisting my arm – to want to snack. But really, I know what it is.
It’s habit.
I’m psychologically starving, I know this. I’m a ‘wow I’m bored’ eater and I tend to do that late at night after dinner. If the kids and I go out, I don’t over eat at all, but if we’re home? Oh my god I eat so fast and afterwards I feel like my stomach is going to split. I can’t help it and it’s freaking me out. I am, however, working out like a fiend. Well, not really, but I started with walking and got up to 3 miles in 1 hr, but I have recently added the elliptical machine and now I’m up to 30 minutes/2 miles.
The difference between the two exercises is definitely cardio. I think I’m going to have a heart attack with the elliptical while on it, but I’m not as sore or exhausted after walking 3.1 mph on the treadmill. (I prefer the treadmill because I can maintain my speed – not my dog dragging me down the street trying to attack the squirrels taunting her – plus ‘sweaty guy’ is just cool to look at as he walks around the gym and exercises). I digress….
My first big goal is breaking 200lbs, but I’ve lost 40lbs to date and I’m at 2 1/2 months. That’s not bad and I prefer the weight loss slowing down so I don’t look like a saggy meat bag. I’m not in a hurry, I just don’t want to f9ck myself and stretch my stomach out. EATING IS HARD. /sigh